Four years ago to the minute, Tess was in the hospital as were the triplets. I was at home. I had just posted the first pics of them in the NICU, while polishing off a part bottle of wine – or maybe all of it, can’t remember – and half a block of cheddar cheese. As I worked at the computer I listened to Dido’s songs "Life For Rent" and "White Flag" and "Here With Me" over and over and over, thinking that Lita must have thought I was crazy. (Ironic, because that was the start of a season when I waved a white flag to the Lord.) It was a rough night. As I went to bed, I recall praying that the triplets would live. My words fell on silence. There was no experience of grace from God, but I knew He was there, and I knew He knew that I knew He was there… odd, but just one of those things. Call it "expectant silence." Four years later as we held the triplets’ birthday party on the playground, my mind continued to emerge out of the long fog of four years, bewildered at where the triplets have come from, what they have accomplished, the incredible story of their survival and progress. The crowd sang each one of them "Happy Birthday." as each one took a turn blowing out the candle. During each song I choked up… unable to make my way through the moment. Just too overwhelming. On a lighter note you probably are all wondering, "what about the cake?" The cake… something very different: in keeping with the spiritual season that I find myself in these days, I made a cake of a Christian monastery atop of a mountain. Simple. Symbolic. Spiritual. Do you believe me?
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April 3, 2005
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Beautiful blog, suitable for beautiful children!!
Love to you all
Auntie Pammie xoox
Happy birthday to JJ,Sela and Carys !!
a long way in such a short time, for all six of you!
Happy Birthday Carys, Sela, and Jasper!!!!
Sure, but what did you tell the kids it is? 🙂
Happy 4th Birthday to Jasper, Sela & Carys!
What an incredible 4 years it has been~
re: the cake, to quote the princess bride,
“LIAR! LIAR! LIIII-ARRRRRR!”
post the cake pictures, please.
Happy Birthday Jasper, Sela and Carys! I remember that weekend, and the months that followed so well – they are true miracles.
I’m so glad I’ve seen them recently and know first hand how amazing they all are.
And how incredible their parents are!
Love to you all,
Lucy
Wow! Four years! Has it been that long since I discovered your site telling about the babies?? I recall reading the updates and crying and praying for hours. Look what God has done! Are we surprised? NO!!
I still sometimes think back to how scary it was for ME, I cannot imagine what you guys went through. I remember PLEADING with God to PLEASE spare every life and I thought about the weeks and months ahead with you all building fun memories together.
Happy Brithday Jasper, Sela and Carys!
Can’t possibly imagine the intensity of your prayers that night 4 years ago, or your emotions while watching them blow their birthday candles. Congratulations on this special day! God does indeed honor those who honor Him.